Bila Bolar Pup

nousefor_it @ 2009-09-30T12:15:00

2009-09-30T04:14:25Z

I'm moving to use tumblr.
When I post there, I know my records would be lost in the millions of other pictures and random stuff.
Its like. semi-private-public? ohwells.

Catch me up there.

http://tamadesimmitaichi.tumblr.com/

If nothing makes any sense, well... just let it not make sense!

nousefor_it @ 2009-07-23T06:48:00

2009-07-22T22:51:10Z

I've been busy
And stressed to the point I didn't feel like going on
oh.. and fuck you.

nousefor_it @ 2009-04-18T05:30:00

2009-04-17T22:11:39Z

We are just fleeting shadows

We are beings living on the hyperplanes of immanence
We think we're making an impact
Unwitted and left without any choice of history

We are the results of a simple mass of body
We have a strong appetence for self control
unconscious and ignorant of the body

We have a doubt on our existence
We cast ourselves on surfaces
Unsure and oblivious to how we are shaped

-------------------------------------------------------Disturbed from hereinafter

In the gloomiest days
You feel one with the world
and you loses your identity

In the brightest days
You feel like you're the P4wnAge
and nothing can rid you

Will you choose to be one or to stand out
Will you be satisfied
North or South?
East or West?

No matter how
You're the same as anyone else
And you don't have a choice

If there's a kick to your tent it's probably you yourself
Your selfless existence does not matter
You live thinking you're changing something or achieving something
But you're not a shadow
You're a worthless junk

Do you think your identity makes you any different
Do you think you're making an impact on history
Do you think you're a being
Do you think you have a choice?

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AH IT WAS NICE
TILL SOMEONE CALLED
:(

nousefor_it @ 2009-04-16T16:21:00

2009-04-16T08:22:51Z

nousefor_it @ 2009-04-10T01:58:00

2009-04-10T18:11:14Z

Funny enough. I think she's the prettist! LIZZIE!

<3<3

I duno what spurred this
but it made me realized what kinda girls i like!
see!
All the same type one

K

I Suppose
Hey!

nousefor_it @ 2009-03-14T01:52:00

2009-03-13T18:04:13Z

Pondering.

An egg and a sperm is enough to create a newly formed being(with enough energy to survive by itself).
What if we could harness this energy.
Imagine a million sperm and animal's eggs could be a infinite farming technology

A sperm captures energy from the male entity (the mitochondria itself allows the sperm to produce energy) and that is the initial amount needed to kickstart life.
The embryo then laters acts as a parasite and depend on the host (mother) for more energy.
What if we are able to control this growth for maximum output and change the host to some other being?

A catalyst to turn the parasite into a victim.

Also if stem cell research allows a heart to be built.
A thousand heart = A major blood pumping device = Wave, kinetic energy = water-like produced energy.

Just wondering if human themselves can be used to generate energy in the future.

Thinking itself produces small tiny emount of electrical waves
What if it is able to be harness in small amounts all over the world from all living beings. Apart from humans, dogs, cats, anything with a brain.
Over a wireless transaction into a main energy storage place. (possible)
Not feasible, but over the long-term it have large gain

JUST THINKING

nousefor_it @ 2008-11-11T23:50:00

2008-11-11T15:51:07Z

nousefor_it @ 2008-09-10T17:20:00

2008-09-11T09:25:11Z

nousefor_it @ 2008-07-10T02:17:00

2008-07-09T18:19:00Z

http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com

Only several post, but better than one litre of tears.
better than any stupid drama.

It's really saddening. I've been touched and inspired
the short 15 minute spent kinda changed me inside out

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-26T03:12:00

2008-06-25T19:13:10Z

I'm thinking of cutting my hair short. hahaha

Postbox vocalist. Samantha.
Damn. Damn. Damn

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-22T23:41:00

2008-06-22T15:42:00Z

Sorry to everyone i kinda busted today. especially to tara
i was well. kinda low.
lotsa things happened

well

FRIENDS ONLY FROM NOW ON!
except for arguable posts

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-20T20:11:00

2008-06-20T12:21:59Z

I guess i'll do this b4 i go out or something..

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Nickalot ( am i suppose to put this here, wth)

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- It's time for my bachelor party! and maybe cry my ass off in the toilet

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- To fly

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
- A fishing trip, nah kidding. erm. a nice classic ones and a marriage in space

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- Who isn't?

#5. what’s your ideal lover like?
- As long as she loves me

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Being loved

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- I waited 2 years so well. i guess i'd be those kind that stupidly wait forever

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Wait and be friends

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- Duhh

#10. Is being tagged fun?
- okay la. tagging is fun i guess

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Dead

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- Family and cheryl

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- Retarded.... okay. ya. nicholas = retarded

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
- Rich and Single and Geeky

.#15. What’s the first thing you do every morning?
- "uhhh. 5 more minute. i think i can wake up 5 minute later"

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Certainly yes, if not why waste the time

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- Most probally the one who loves me most

#18. What type of friends do you like?
- Retards

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
- Petty and people who thinks only straight

I will tag. cheryl, kaeting, gary, ben, naomi(i'll tag her for u. hahah), nabei, cheebye kia, jiok du lan,
uh whatever and whoever uh. i'm not really into this stuff anyways. in fact this i my 1st.
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nousefor_it @ 2008-06-20T12:50:00

2008-06-20T04:48:49Z

i tried . i really tried

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-20T12:48:00

2008-06-20T04:48:04Z

When i die.
Would you wished you had spent more time with me?

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-20T12:28:00

2008-06-20T04:45:57Z

I guess when you've given up alot. a large contributing part of your future
to something you wanna do.
You don't wanna fail or fall short on it.
But when it goes to an extent where you can do nothing to save it
you just have to let go and try again
or maybe even try doing something which you are sure is futile

All the extra effort to do something for myself.

Gone

With a simple e-mail that just defined you and your future
they would not have realised the damage they've done

Life is such a funny thing. There are so many ways you could die
and yet you are controlled by everything.
Its like a doll tied to strings and unable to move.
But once he wanna kill himself. the master just let him do so

Do they understand?
Do they care?

its really sucks.
i can't help but to say i can't save myself this time round.
i've gotten quite tired..
I should learn not to trust anyone else but myself
cause when i place anything in other people's hand
It's abused..
Seeking for help? Not anymore
Trusting you? No way
i still remembered

How people always say
" I'm helping you what, how can you get angry just because I was late for a few days. or just because i last minute don't wanna do"
well . you're fucked up. simply because

Did you even upkeep the promise? It isn't even a help if you faulter
it isn't a help even if you don't do. Cause it's all burden

I myself don't really keep promises. i really suck at it
so i'll cancel out this part of my life then. no more promises from now on

Temasek ah Temasek polytechnic.
you just drastically changed my life 40 minutes ago
Maybe you didn't realised. But yes you kinda gave me a huge gash on my stomach

Nobody reads this anyways. only a few person.
Just what am i typing all this for. Maybe its just the thought
that anyone who see this would care and know what i feel
and maybe i'm just making a statement here.

just what defines loneliness?
just what defined us?
or what defines you?

i wish. to go back to the past.

Maybe if i had my memory erased, i'd not feel so sad and i could die just like that

Its the bonds that keeps me alive. Not with you or him.
Its the family

I'll never understand anyone
I'll only understand myself
and all i ever need now

is a change of fate from Ms. Cherry
i guess . i hope
this would be the last time i depended on someone
a simple line
is all i need

:(
i'm really depressed now.
Prozac please

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-20T12:23:00

2008-06-20T04:22:48Z

Fuck Temasek Polytechnic.
All the fucking talks and no effort
Fuck Fuck Fuck
Fucking Osip
Fucking IP
Fucking Internal SIP
The things i'm willing to give up and already gave up
and TP gave no fucking shit

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-17T23:59:00

2008-06-17T16:04:05Z

A kiss is not a contract, But its very nice.

PurpleFireFlies have entered the finals of the salad bar competition.. i think

Please come down and support Purple Fireflies! Although we'll be only playing two songs, i assure you i won't disappoint you guys, We need your utmost support. We've improve over the months with a few new songs. The new one. will make you dance. Please! Come down this sunday at scape! Its free!

12 other great bands would be playing, be sure to catch them too.
and there's this band. woaaaaa lauuu. i'm demoralized. Just hope by luck or by crude we'll get to top 6
"D

Busy week

Sometimes i just ask myself, whether its all worth the effort

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-16T22:41:00

2008-06-16T14:57:44Z

When i think that the air I breathe have been through so many people, i just don't feel so lonely no more.

In a world of no tomorrow, realize that there's a today which are so much better than tomorrow.

In a life of no meaning, just know you are a meaning to everyone around you

In a family so torn and shattered, look below and all the shreds may form another picture

When your pocket is empty, note that the next meal you get would be much more special than others had

When you're so retarded, feel that you're happier than others who spend their time despising people

When you're so ugly ... just accept it luh uh

when you're wasting your time away, know that whatever you do always have a output.

In a century so messed up and hot, think hitler and think yamashita

In a society so complex, know that at least they're people thinking of you

With a person so fucked up, know that you're fucked too if you despise him

In a fishing trip with no fish, know that you have your rarer-to-catch friends around you

With a bad remark from a friend, think of how you guys were even friend to start with

with no talent at all, know that complaining is not your talent nor your escapades

With a dick so small, know that you get girls who appreciates you (no its not small btw)

with a eye so slit, realize that less sun and dust enters your eyes

with a lips so thick, know that your kisses are smoochier

with a hand so small, know that it fits

with a body so thin, look at that person beside you on the bus

with a phone from china, know that it can watch tv

with a girlfriend so cute, know that she's still cute

with my character so retarded, i'm having much more fun than all of you'll

and

with me so me

mee siam is such a heavenly delight

with tom so tom

tom yam is my orgasm

The things i think to make myself feel better. haha

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-16T02:40:00

2008-06-15T18:42:53Z

I need to drink
i ... need ... night ... theraphy ...

i.. need.. to.. wake.. up.. tomorrow..

anyone can spot the continual similarities above?

Mindfuck.

and no i'm not. its you.

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-15T17:00:00

2008-06-15T09:03:08Z

Dug up old games to play. DK2. woots. 50+ skeleton and 20+ vampires. heh
didn't really wanted to end the game cause it was like. sims dungeon or whatever

Baby kissed a girl and i'm not happy :(
cause i wasn't there

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-13T23:43:00

2008-06-13T15:49:56Z

Have i mentioned that bilar polar pub. which i randomly came up with
conincide with this word

bipolar disorder. see the contrasting diff? haha

Bipolar disorder is not a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated mood, clinically referred to as mania.

oh and i hate the night sky when there's alot of stars. not hate but. i prefer a clean night sky
with only one or a few stars.

weird but.. yea. its cleaner that way

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-09T13:07:00

2008-06-09T05:51:20Z

There have been revelation in my head
and this thought.
*quoted from cheryl who quoted from some philosopher

"Our actions are not defined/lead/initiated by our mind, rather, it's the needs of doing things that lead our mind to do so"

actually. i dun really know how to explain but i got it in my head . its like

You do not take your hand away from the hot pot because your mind told you to do so
You take it away because the pot is hot. quite hard to understand but. yea

i'm still thinking about it. Whether its the mind that leads to action. or the action that leads to the mind
the mind may be just a median to carry out your actions and not think about it

I just read an interesting article

The phase of the development of earth have currently lead to a possible revelation where noosphere transformation may occur, in which previously, there had been 2 phases of this development. mainly the
Geosphere - where crust, rock, earth is created ( inanimate matter )
Biosphere - where life occurs through water, air land. ( biological life)
Noosphere - where Human thoughts would fundamentally transform earth. where theorist says that through the mastery of nuclear technology, we may create resources through the transmutation of elements.

Who says anime story are all just a bunch of crap
we may become just like the anime. R.A.V.E.R or is it without the R
wooots. Thunder power here i come

But why would the earth puts its development in human's hand?
This theory is initiated and evolved by humans
whatever it is. Thinking about it on the more. Natural form
i think its the evolution of the mind in all existing animal living on earth. don't think its only us if this
Noosphere phase were to take place.

dunno

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-08T09:18:00

2008-06-08T01:19:44Z

Audition later
wish me luck

How hayley's book 1st topic is. Me and your death

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-07T03:43:00

2008-06-06T19:44:19Z

Is school. finally. over?
it sure don't feel like it

nousefor_it @ 2008-06-07T01:16:00

2008-06-06T17:51:14Z

I CANNOT BELIEVE THE PRESIDENT IS FUCKING HER BRO.
(prison break btw, sorry hilary i'm not saying you)

and there's quite a great representation between caroline reynold and hilary clinton. no?

Finally everything is over. I can finally. rest properly for one day.

and i saw a super hot guy today. totally looks like the actor in absolute boyfriend
and he's damn tall and his hair is damn nice. woots. You know the not-so-robot guy who the main actress likes?
omg he made me feel shitty
i realised how fucking ugly i am
stupid asshole. just one glance and he puts me down for the rest of my life.

i'm having a change of fashion for a fresh change in a fresh change

i just wanna break the wind frame and push it out to dear lord